When your emotions spike – rage, panic, hate – that is not just a feeling.
It is your automatic system flaring up.

It is not obvious.
And it is not because he/she mistreated you.

The body doesn’t do drama.
It does survival.
And these states –
they are survival auto reactions.

Most people ride them blindly.
Or suppress them.
Or label them a “bad mood” and wait it out.

But if, for one second,
you notice it –
not explain it, just see it –
you have broken the loop.

A small, major kind of progress.
A step out of hell.

Because these reactions are not random.
They are automatic habits – written in cortisol and memory.
They come from somewhere.
Some past moment your body decided was too important to forget.

So now, it scans for similar shapes.
A physical pain.
A tone of voice.
A door closing too hard.
A good thing that feels too good too fast.

And it hits the alarm –
even when there is no fire. Often when there is no fire.

If you ignore it,
you lose the trail.
You miss the pattern.
And that means you will keep repeating it.

The emotion is not the problem.
It is the elusive trigger.

But it speaks in symptoms, not sentences.
It spikes. It numbs.
It makes you want to leave this world

If you want to survive it –
longterm, not just tonight –
you do not need to push through.
You need to track it.
Like a hunter.
Because the real danger is never out there – it is the trap you don’t see inside.